“Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?…
If I say, “Surely the darkness will cover me,
And the night will be the only light around me,”
Even the darkness is not dark to You and
conceals nothing from You.
But the night shines as bright as the day;
Darkness and light are alike to You…
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were appointed for me,
When as yet there was not one of them [even taking shape]
(Psalm 139:7,11,12,& 16).”
Every morning, and most nights, I walk through our house without a single light on. I know exactly when and where to step and turn to avoid bumping into my decorative suitcases or the kitchen table. Because of my familiarity with the path, I don’t need to be able to see. Anyone else trying to walk through our house would trip or, possibly, run straight into a wall because it’s unfamiliar territory. But not me. I know exactly where I’m going because I’ve already been there before.
Believe it or not, it’s the exact same way for God when it comes to our lives and futures. We have no idea what we’re doing or what is around, but, for God, it’s just the same as having the lights on. He’s been here before. He knows where He’s going and what might be in the way. When we try to run ahead and make it on our own, we end up tripping or getting hurt. God knows where to step and when to turn in order to avoid running into any unexpected or painful obstacles along the way.
I don’t know about you, but this lets me breathe a big sigh of relief. I don’t have to know the path, I don’t even have to have a map. All I have to do is trust my guide. I simply have to trust His knowledge, His direction, and His character.
If you have read any of my posts in the past, then you may be aware that I can sometimes be a control freak when it comes to my future. It’s something that God and I work on continuously.
Lately, I’ve been struggling with this negative trait a little more than usual. I’ve been really feeling like I have somehow messed up or ruined God’s plans for my life and future. I have apologized, I have repented, I have begged, and I have done it all over again the next day. I was really struggling with this one day last week, begging God to please forgive me, to please not give up on me and leave me to deal with my own messes, when I stumbled across a blog that I had never read before and a post that I know God intended for me to read.
The topic of this post was trusting God and running to Him in times of need and desperation before we run to anything or anyone else. In the middle of the post, the author said this, “It is so easy to get caught up in thinking that you have to figure out everything right now or that somehow, you have the power to ruin your future and God’s plan by making the wrong decision (that’s a complete lie if nobody has told you that yet).” (You can read this full post here).
God used this post to remind me, “Hey! You’re not the one in control here, I AM. You don’t need to know where we’re going because I’ve already been there and I know the way. And, guess what… You can’t ruin my plans because I already know what decision you’re going to make before you make it. I already had that figured into my plans.”
This may not mean much to you, but it broke some serious chains and fears in my life.
Before I was ever even born, God knew every choice I would make, every word I would say, and every fear that I would have. Before I was ever born, God promised to be with His children everywhere, at all times. There is nowhere that I can go where God’s Spirit will not be with me. I could never run far enough to escape God’s presence. I will never step anywhere that God has not already been. And there will never be a darkness that is dark to God. Even the darkness is light to Him because He knows exactly where He is, where I am, and where We’re going.
“When I’m lost in the mystery, to You my future is a memory. Because You’re already there.”